Did he really care?

Did she really care?

Did I really care?

Did YOU really care?

No.

DON'T MESS WITH ME WHEN I'M AGRAVATED, OKEY??????!!!!!!

GOD DAMMIT, DOM BETTER START GETTING HIS ASS OUT OF THE CHAIR I'M CURRENTLY SITTING ON!!!!!! EVERYTIME HE'S HERE, HE TAKES AWAY MY PRIVACY AND MY OWN TERITORY!!! EVERY KNOCK ON MY DOOR PISSES ME OFF!!!!!!

AND I WAS A FOOL TO HAVE ACCEPTED CY'S AND ALDRIN'S REQUEST FOR ASSISTANCE!!!!!! Kapag gusto, may paraan. Kapag ayaw, may dahilan... Hmmm... Tama, ayaw ko nga. Kung nahihirapan na ako dito, ba't pa dadagdag trabaho ko?! I already gave my word, so... here I am.

AND I HAVE TO ARRIVE IN SCHOOL BEFORE 6:45 BECAUSE OF A MASS???!!! THREE HOURS OF SLEEP WON'T DO ME ANY GOOD!!!

Yeah, and blogging in this situation would... so here's the last curse for the entry. (I know not all of you would allow me, but still... thank you)

PUTANG INAAA!!!

Pity won't do anything at all; it's the action responded by it that counts. Jokes are meant to fool, yet they are half-truth. A name holds all identity of the owner; it is mocked, the holder retaliates. When the eyebrows form a v-shape, take a step backward and plan. Friends are like a carnival and a home joined together. (He almost said it that way) Give way to those who have space to prioritize you; forget those who don't lift a finger in an effort. You can't trust anyone. Your senses are perfect in the forward perspective, but your back isn't. Life isn't fair. Reality sucks; money talks.

Stacy was right. Sig was right. Ez was right. Vig was right. EJ was right. Meak was right (times two). Del Prads was right (times two to him too).

They all were.

And in a sense, they weren't.

August 26

"The Freedom Wall". All of their anger was released AND revealed in these pieces of Manila paper (i still doubt that it was Manila paper). Whether it was against one's will, one's dignity, one's senses, one's nature; it didn't matter, as long as you got it out of your guts, you're already happy.

I will rename Rahisnadyn into The Freedom Wall. The rules? Very simple. You could say anything as long as you can prove that what you're saying is right and/or if your reason for saying it is legible, it will be tolerated. Otherwise, you'd best be silent.

August 27

A short list of pains-in-the-ASS:

• School
• The Library
• Internet connecting
• I'd bet there's a whole lot more...
• Ah! Pop-ups!

Special 2smp27 Edition

Heck, I just came from an A.P. graded recitation duo. What do I mean? When the chance comes that Mr. Dizon takes two index cards instead of one, a race-to-three game initiates. The winner gets a score of 90 in recitation (it is now 92 since this is the second quarter). The loser gets a grade of 60. (now is 62. hehe...)

Fortunately, I won. Paolo (Intud) knows the answers that I got, I just spitted it out fast.

The soldiers psionically trained, "Julie Grace Navarro", "Rikusai", "Richard Dizon", and "Lem Buitre" were given an extension in their training to maximize their capabilities. They remained in the laboratory for around three months. Their resistances against enemy control were greatly stressed, but their own manipulating abilities remaind the same from the start. Fortunately, they still were able to control the minds of some aliens. After the training of the four, the rest went into training too. The new trainees would temporarily be replaced by three Hovertanks/Plasma HWPs and a Hovertank/Fusion Ball.

"Lem Buitre" was injured from the splash damage from the Fusion Ball of a Hovertank while being assisted in eliminating a Snakeman Soldier equiped with a Heavy Plasma. Unfortunalely, his case is serious compared to other injuries, and will be confined for twenty-eight days.

May, 2000, the following month, was the scariest one the X-COM has ever encountered. Not only did USA withdraw from the X-COM project, but the aliens launched an estimated total of ninety UFOs, which is equivalent to almost half of what the aliens have sent in the previous fifteen months. Half of the ninety probably was composed of VERY LARGE Battleship-type UFOs sent on Alien Retaliation (spelling?) missions. Sectiods hated most the guts of the personel in the bases Sa-Matra and Delta Crateris.

As for the rest, they were the regulars. Harvests, abductions, terror missions, base expansions and creations, scouts, and others that I wish I wouldn't remember. I was shocked to simultaneously see in the radar around seven green dots all on Chinese soil - representing touch-downed UFOs. From those missions, there appeared two alien bases, one located somewhere in North America, and another one exactly in the previous base located in Mindanao, Philippines. There were probably two other alien bases still undiscovered.

But despite all these bad news, something good sprouts out from the terror: the Ethereals, one of the most high-ranking aliens of all. In order to know where exactly the whole alien armada resides, the soldiers MUST get a live Ethereal commander, and let our scientists find out through the abducted alien. Unfortunately, they only appear in VERY LARGE Battleship-type UFOs, like the Sectoids, and their only target is the base Marauders. It is located on a small piece of land in the middle of the Pacific Ocean. If the Battleship would crash, it would land in the middle of the ocean. No soldier or HWP (Heavy Weapons Platform) could be dispatched, thus nullifying the devastation caused by AVENGER-5,6,7,8 and 9. The only way to make sure that the Battleship crashed on dry land, AVENGER-1, INTERCEPTOR-5, and the base they were sent from, Manufacturing, must keep a keen eye on the path of Battleships. As soon as the UFO is detected, AVENGER-1 from Manufacturing, and AVENGER-2 from Delta Crateris must chase it, and take it down, no matter how many days it would take for the Avenger to rejuvinate from the powerful weapons of the Battleship-class UFO.

............

Sick of UFO: Enemy Uknown status reports? Hah. Get ready for a Character and Weapons chart of Hexen.

AND HOW COME ALMOST EVERYWHERE I GO, A "CANNOT FIND SERVER" PAGE POPS OUT OF THE FRIGGIN' BROWSER??????!!!!!!

A few minutes after fixing Alarilla's project, I took my notebook and shifted my way towards the THE room. A group of SMPs were already there, probably waiting for Mr. Mariano's signal to get inside the THE room.

A few minutes after my arrival, the rest came down too.

Though it isn't an unusual sight, something caught my eye...

There are actually TWO GROUPS compromising II-SMP. (And another one at the middle composed of no other than Marc Niño Chan. Hehe)

FOR MR. DIZON'S SAKE, DO WE BELONG TO A SINGLE SECTION??????!!!!!!

In order to accomplish the Filipino homework that Ms. Abancia gave us, Aldrin and I gave a visit to the Library (with me providing him my Library card last year just to enter). We scanned Tables of Contents of different books from different year (levels), different authors, different topics - and eventually found the buried treasure. Pokus ng Pandiwa.

While taking down the seven Focuses of verbs, we had a conversation. Aldrin didn't want a conversation with a normal tongue - it was a kind of talk that required me to use a Dictionary the size of four Bibles (talk about Tomes...). Most of his words wre about his frustrations in class, and that he might... (edited just this August 23. I removed some parts)

And here is the result of the Filipino homework: (sorry if I can't pin-point the definitions. I sorta remember its general meaning)

Retribution - merited punishment
Wraith - an image (something like that) that you see in a person before or after his/her death.
Verge - to go to one direction.
Repulse(-ion) - to move by force.
Krater - a cup used for mixing wine with water.
Quietus (though I already learned that around a month ago) - a final stroke on a masterpiece or such.

Yep. That's dang Filipino, alright...

Special 2smp27 edition
(basically, it's a post created while I'm in the Computer Lab at school)

Great. A Graded Recitation in AP on Wednesday. About the notes in Zoroasitism... Eh...? Was the spelling right? Anyway... How early... I wonder what we would do on the other subjects. Mr. Cosico gave us free time (that's why I have all the time in Computer period to do almost anything).

(added a few seconds before recess)

I only have 16 activities in Computer?! What the hell are the other activities?!

KORAX IS A PATHETIC ASSHOLE!!!

THE GUY THAT WAS RELATED TO D'SPARIL POSED A BETTER OPPONENT THAT THAT IDIOT!!!

Within this short period of time, there were four missions already accomplished; two of them from a touch-downed UFO, two of them from a crashed one. Two more touch-downed UFOs are present, one VERY LARGE and one LARGE. There is also another crashed UFO, a SMALL one. From a previous group of UFOs of varying sizes landing on the South-Asian soil, INTERCEPTOR-3 has patroled the areas - and discovered another alien base (and it was funny - the location of the base was on the Philippines. In Mindanao, to be more precise. Hahahaha!)

The best soldiers in X-COM, "Julie Grace Navarro", "Richard Dizon", "Rikusai" and "Lem Buitre" are located in the base Delta Crateris and are under Psyonic traning. Due to the sessions, these soldiers are unavailable for missions, and will be on the next month, which is in January, 2000. Two soldiers in Sa-Matra were already existing for a long time, and were renamed "Roselyn Abancia" and "Myra Broadway". Squaddies "Migs Quijano" and "Kyle Camacho" were hit by accelerating particles from within minute anti-gravity fields triggered by Heavy Plasmas, and thus were injured during their previous mission. They will be back in comission after three days.

Squaddies "Benjo Magnaye", "m8", "Ven Valenzuella", "Roselyn Abancia", "Austell Tumampos" and Captain "Myra Broadway" were dispatched by AVENGER-3 to a mission in UFO-110 VERY LARGE. They are currently facing not only the green accelerating particles from plasma or blue capsule-like objects that face as a very dangerous explosive threat, but also the psychic capabilities imbued by the minds of the Etherals. The base Sa-Matra lacked HWP Fusion balls to reload Hovertank/Fusion, and was unfortunately left behind. We wish the squadron in AVENGER-3 to come back, their mission accomplished, and theirselves relieved.

............

Yeah, as if someone asked for a cursed status report...

August 15

People were scattered in all directions. Present in the present and present in the future. Mr. Dizon's earliness provided him some time to play basketball with students who wished to play. Ms. Gaborno was going against my direction - she was probably on her way. Mr. Bejar, Mr. Victorino and Mr. Hipolito seemed like their presence was for a gimik. Ms. Broadway wasn unable to brush her hair (as for the teeth, well, I never knew) at her home, so did the grooming on her way. Mrs. Baesa might be rich; if she took the taxi for going to school, does that mean it's at a daily basis? Mr. Sebastian spent too much time thinking of what to wear, so he was running towards school - in a school uniform. (hindi yung sa estudyante, ha?!) Mrs. Manalang had the same problem, so off she goes.

"Paging all personel, please proceed to the AVR right now."

The roll call... for the Teachers' Seminar.

Random Thoughts for August 15, Friday:

• If Time Crisis III wasn't in demand, we would have kicked some butt...
• Bad Boys II rocks.
• Cool... A 25-hour ISP card worth P100... I better try that some time.
• I've lost another group to belong... Good for Dom that he has found another one to belong.
• IT'S BACK TO SCHOOL TOMORROW!!! NIYAAAAAAHHH!!! *sigh* At least there's nothing to worry about it... Except for my notes in C.L.E. and T.H.E. Why? 'Cause I don't have any notes. Why? 'Cause I don't have a notebook in those subjects.
• Men are still losers!
• I've lost another 0.4 pen.
• I only have 650 megabytes of free space left.
• I'm currently scanning some images. 25 of 'em, to be exact.
• By the way, our scanner is made only for those stuff that are as large as those ordinary photos. A 8½ x 11 won't fit.
• After all those times... UFO 2 would soon end...
• That means I'll download UFO 3! Yosh!
• Dom's hard disk is in my computer. That means there are four drives. A. takes the diskette. C. Is my hard disk. D. is Dom's hard disk. E. is the drive of the virtual CD. and F. is my actual CD drive.
• Because the CD drive is originally located at D., games that require CDs can't be played!
• I miss my dangerously-handsome face. - The sub-title for my 9-year old picture in my Autobiography.
• The games that I currently play: UFO 2, Dune 2, and Hexen.
• I made a god out of blood, not superiority. I killed the king of deceit (spelling?). Now I sleep in Anarchy...
• I got a 20/20 in an English quiz. (I was so happy at the time I got that)
• I'd bet my card grade in C.L.E. is a failing mark. Low quizes, not much activities answered, only three journals written, only half of the required number of hours in the Parish involvement is sufficed, and my graded recitation didn't pose as a pulling force. And those ain't a result of pessimism - it's a result of analysis.
• I am a perfectionist, yet I barely do anything to obtain that flawlessness (spelling?)
• Hmmm... I dreamed that I was buying some diskettes...
• I am aware of the fact that you don't care about ANYTHING that I write.

August 17

God dammit, My saved game in Hexen got corrupted for no reason at all - while playing! I have a backup- but it ain't that easy to catch up. I've lost an estimated five hours of gameplay...

Wow... even he had a thought of shutting down his Internet (Live)journal? It was a worse case - he actually did it.

*sigh* goodbye, Enzo.

Do not underestimate:

• The power of the Distruptor Pulse Launcher. (and the Blaster Launcher)
• The effectiveness of the Heavy Thermic Lance.
• The size of an Alien Colony.
• The Alien Colonies themselves.
• The beauty of classic games and its music. (heck, I better add those sites to the links page soon...)
• The protection provided by Plastic Aqua-Armor (that's Alien plastic, mind you) (and Personal Armor).
• The puzzles beneath factoring polynomials.
• The Alien Plastics themselves.
• The burden given by Rational Expression operations.
• The confusion presented by periodic exams.
• The natural armor carried by the Lobster Men (and the Muton)
• The claws of Lobster Men (is it even called claws?)
• The rejuvenating functions of Medi-kits.
• The hit points of the Tasoth.
• The M.C. (Molecular Control) abilites of the Tasoth and Aquatoid (and the Ethereal and Sectoid)
• The creepiness of the Tentaculat. (and the Chryssalid)
• The effect of not logging in to Utopia for two days.
• The catastrophe summoned by not logging in to Kings of Chaos for a week.
• The consumption of cash even if your wallet is bulky.
• The capabilities you possess.
• The disadvantage of using time without any sense.
• The kicking power of a single cup o' coffee.
• The importance of Zrbite (and Elerium: Element-115)
• The money you get after selling so much Sonic Cannons, Rifles, Pistols, Distruptor Pulse Launchers, Thermal Shock Launchers, Alien Plastics, etc.
• The threat possed by even a single Alien Sub (and UFO).
• The focus disturbance caused by "love"
• The fusion of wedges, screws and extreme heat. (that's actually equivalent to a Vibro Blade, a Thermic Lance, or a Heavy Thermic Lance)
• The destruction caused by sonic... energy. (or maybe force?)
• The withdrawal of a single continent from the X-COM project.

WOHOOO!!! PARODIUS DA!!! MORE STUFF FOR THE NEXT COMPILATION!!!

But after Monday's school day ended I still had problems...

Science - Ms. Mendoza already left her desk the moment I and Justin arrived at the faculty room. We just left a note asking for her consideration (we DID give it before 1600 hrs... Or was it exactly at 1600 hrs.?)
C.L.E. - I just discovered that I only had four and a half hours out of the eight required in the parish involvement - and I barely had any of the sigantures there.
Filipino - I LEFT MY NOTEBOOK AT SCHOOL!!! AND TOMORROW'S EXAMS ARE FILIPINO, A.P. AND T.H.E.!!! IF ONLY SOMEONE RETURNED THE NOTEBOOK... NNNNNNNNNNNNGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!

I therefore conclude that the start of my Sophomore year is as lousy as it could get.

At sa kahit anong exam na kunin namin...

HINDI NAMIN ALAM NI DFG467 KUNG ANO YUNG SAGOT SA NAME!!!!!!

Did you know that...

• Ang mga hearthrob (spelling?) na teachers sa school ay si Ms. Navarro, Ms. Gaborno, Ms. Tagros, Ms. Dela Fuente, Ms. Broadway at si Ms. Arboleda?
• There was a major traffic jam in the corridor of the faculty room? (probably due to submittion of projects)
• Walang bakla sa II-SMP? (malandi, meron, pero malayu-layo pa 'yon sa pagiging BADING)
• I bought another sacheted coffee mix for emergecy purposes?
• Ez visited my site? (visit his too. His site kicks butt, you know)
• A crush would remain a crush if not looked at deeply?
• I slept at 0430 hrs. yesterday?
• Raymond kept pestering me to email him my project in English?
• We had our extremely easy periodic exam on Computer today?
• I actually forgot to insert some of my masterpieces in my project in English, and had no choice but to copy some from the random stuff (in the Computer lab while doing the exams), edit it in MS word, save the document, mail it to myself, go to the library, download it there and print? (I even included the link to my website. Yeah, yeah, I know, Ms. Navarro wouldn't waste time on surfing such stuff. Heheh. But my website IS a work of art)
• I'm gonna have a haircut tomorrow after classes?
• Ms. Navarro has a crush on Zaf? ('De, joke lang yon. It's only a conspiracy)
• Neon is mistaken as Vidamo and vice versa by ma'am?
• The music that is currently playing now is the original version of the BGM in Chahisnadyn back then?
• Ms. Bustamante contributed ONLY five points worth of questions in the A.P. periodic exam? (well, that was according to Mr. Dizon, but hey, he was the one who made the exam itself)
• Our class president (si Zaf aka Meak aka Mark) wishes not to be in his current position?
• Dom's room somehow smelled like cigarette smoke last night?
• I should be studying now?

I struck gold once again, but this time, it was the familiar, and not the uknown, unlike the Metal Fatigue OSTs. This time, it was something I was craving for a long time. I loved it since... around I was 8 or 9 years old, but it was only two years ago that the search missions began.

GRADIUS III MUSIC!!!!!!

It was not on the usual MP3 format; It was on the SPC instead. While searching for it, I found a plug-in for playing NSF files (the SPC format for NES aka Family Computer) in Winamp, and I found some Megaman6 NSFs. Thinking that SNES had something similar, I searched once again - I found another plug-in and a LONG list of SPC compilations. (and also, a much simpler way on how to convert the files into WAV then into MP3! yosh!)

Next Up: PARODIUS!!! I forgot about that, but as soon as I post this, I'm gonna go back...

My academic life is full of stubborness, procrastination (spelling?), cramming, anxiety, horror and misunderstanding.

How sad.

Let's see now... the projects that I have to submit later are the Autobiography in English, the Career Spotlighting in Science, the bingo cards in Maths (and I don't have any glue here...), the 2-load extension circuit and its project plan for T.H.E. (not yet done with the actual material, the tools and the project itself are in my locker!), the parish involvement paper for C.L.E....

And there's still homework: Filipino, a FORMAL essay. Maths, around three items of Dividing Rational Expressions, and Science, illustration of Nitrogen, CO₂ and Phosphorus cycles.

Ahhh... Nothing beats a good ol' cup o' coffee in the middle of the night...

And you may think that the timpla (ano nga ba english no'n? Heheh...) may be wrong. In that case, I would sue Nestle's Nescafe for that. 3 in 1 'to, 'tol! I still prefer it with more sugar, but I'm kinda getting used to it... Even for just a single cup. :) Ano kaya lasa ng Frothe?

It's 0140 hrs. and I'm supposed to be extremely sleepy by now... That cup of coffee kicked butt.

My room is as devastated as ever!

By the way, I just remembered this. It was back in a Sophomore Assembly, sometime last week.

(by the way, the dialogue isn't perfect word per word)

*The Sophomores, along with the teachers, are in the AVR. It was time for the open forum; for us to start asking questions about almost anything with sense. One time, Mark aka Meak aka Zaf came to ask*
Mark: Um, sir, sana po maganda po yung susunod na fair, kasi po mataas po expecations namin eh. (something like that... it was either that or in a question form)
Mr. Cuya: Nasa sa inyo naman 'yon eh. You could give suggestions as to how it should be, pero kung puro payo lang at hindi niyo mismo ginagawa yung preparations, baka hindi namin makamit yung mga kagustuhan niyo, blah blah blah...
*Ms. Lucido, who is a chairsperson (something like that) of the fair, motions to comment about it. Mr. Cuya gives the floor to her.*
Ms. Lucido: Sinusundan naman namin yung mga surveys eh. Ayaw niyo ng rides, e 'di walang rides, tapos magrereklamo kayo, blah blah blah...
...pero 'pag nandoon naman kayo sa fair ng ibang school, no offense, ha? Nagmumukha kayong tanga.
Rico: (to Neon, who was just at his back) Oo nga, Neon, nagmumukha tayong tanga.

.........

GOD, was she right...

I'd be a gogoolplex (spelling?) times happier when next Monday ends. I don't care if it's the day preceeding the exams. Because on Monday, there would be NO MORE projects accepted by the teacher. (why, Maths' project's deadline's today...).

And that means no more axieties just to think about when to do it, or if your production would go smoothly. No more nervousness in performances, reports, and presentations. Just plain studying of the notes and books...

"Hwat a layp...!", as Ven would say.

Yo, fellow Claretians! Brother Karl's birthday is on Sunday! August 10!

I just struck gold while "surfing" the CDs of Metal Fatigue. Never-heard-before original sound tracks. Mysteriously, the game doesn't play it. The music is on. The volume is the same as that of the sound.

Each Corponation has five "Incidentals" and five "Battles" (except for Neuropa, which only has four). And each of the corponations' music suits its personalities.

Mil-Agro Incidentals and RimTech Battles rock.

Astig pala 'pag Parent-Teacher Conference ang mga araw na 'to...

First it was the mother and/or father who approaches the teacher, but this time, I'm to report to them. It was the period I talked to the most number of teachers - even if the topic was my academic plague. Mr. Dizon attempted to prove that Ms. Navarro did give me an N.I. (sabi pa niya na hahalikan ni sir si ma'am kapag hindi N.I. yung nakalagay... hehe), but instead, showed that I had A DIFFERENT N.I. - C.L.E. Teka lang... ba't hindi pa nahahalikan ni sir si ma'am?!

Ms. Navarro was absent due to sickness, and Ms. Aguilar took over. Not much big deal, just that the quiz assigned was scrubed. The activity given probably posed as one. They had the same topic: basic sentence patterns. Bait naman ni Ms. Aguilar eh... Of all the teachers present, the ones I really like are those who, when greeted warmly, respond with a smile, or with a greeting too. Kasapi si ma'am do'n... By the way, ang ganda talaga ng tanawin! Diba Neon?

But ma'am did say that Ms. Navarro would be coming back at 1400 hrs. to entertain the concerns of the parents towards their sons and their performances. She did - an on with the appointment!

And Robby caught me exiting II-SJW's classroom.

And I, Alds and Cy caught Mr. Bejar watching basketball using the TV at his classroom. Heheh.

Yeah... According to her, the sickness occurs every month (menustration? Hindi daw eh), and isn't associated with pains. But anyway...

Imagine three hours of nothing to do. Your activity to make sure that the clock ticks is to chat and chat. There are three spokespersons included in the discussion, maybe four if the teacher is tagged along or if another individual enters the atmosphere of voices. The venue is a classroom that was fully populated an hour before.

Ang saya...

Square Hands (Heads) - Happy

(This song dows not have highlights because almost every word and/or phrase and/or sentence here would have one if I did)

One day, you came to me
Freed me from misery
A touch of music in you
You start to feel so happy
Makes me jump up and down
You know my heart speaks so free
Each time that we meet
I'm just so happy I met you

Happy
I'm feeling so happy
I'm gonna be happy
You make me so happy
Can't you see I'm happy now?
Oh woh hoh hoh hoh hoh, no no no no no no
Oh woh hoh hoh hoh hoh, no no no no no no

One day, you said to me
Happy is where I wanna be
One plus one makes it two
That equals me and you
Each time we make love
Until the day I met you
All of my dreams came true
I am so happy I met you

Happy
I'm feeling so happy
I'm gonna be happy
I'm gonna be happy
Can't you see I'm happy now?
Oh woh hoh hoh hoh hoh, no no no no no no
Oh woh hoh hoh hoh hoh, no no no no no no
Oh woh hoh hoh hoh hoh, no no no no no no
Oh woh hoh hoh hoh hoh, no no no no no no

I know I want to be happy one day with you
Now I want to be happy with you my baby...

My baby... My baby... My baby, my baby, my baby

Happy
I'm feeling so happy
I'm gonna be happy
I'm gonna be happy
Can't you see I'm happy now?

I have this new journal here. It's "by the key" instead of "by the ink" because I'm too lazy to write using my hand and it's a bulky task to position my CD player close to me.

*sigh* This is the fourth time I asked myself if I should delete my site or not...

And thirty minutes of just connecting to the net didn't help a bit.